Sometimes during periods of mood swings, thoughts and dreams may focus on the way you are now living or spending your remaining part of your life. Basically you asked questions whether your are living your life in a respectable way or are you wasting your life.
Just looking at people around me leading the way this is some examples that I would like to follow:-
Mr Tai Chiu - I find him a daring character who has also a few weakness. Firstly I praise him for the great sacrifice he made when he signed up for the London Open University. From my viewpoint what he achieved is a feature to his cap but subsequently all his effort has not been properly put into use. He used this to prove to many people that he is not stupid and he can achieve a university degree like others. Has he contributed much of his acquired knowledge for the benefit of society? I too have the desire to take up a course or degree but my inner self tells me what use then if I cannot go further to contribute to my family or to society.
Tai Chiu's second daring challenge. To buy a new Mercedes car. I can understand this logic because when his son accepts the offer to return to Malaysia he was given an opportunity of a tax free import car. He is also daring because he believe that he is entitled to the benefits of a luxury car to himself so that he could enjoy the rest of his life in comfort. I agree with his motive, but look at the usage of his car which depreciated more than he could used them. It could mean wasting money. I have so often thought of driving a Mercedes Benz but not owning one. Even that dream has not been met. Do I blame myself for no guts.
Back to my title " reevaluating my life "
Looking back at who I was and now , I must have achieved loads. And in comparison with my brothers and sisters including my parents I have far exceeded them in bringing about a good family of three doctors? Yet there are still times when I feel emptiness in my life and I am trying very hard to find the reason why is this so.?
